:-(

[yaksha42]

I think today was just about the worst day of my life. Today, for the first time in my life, I was fired from a job.

This morning I woke up in a hotel room in Dallas. Originally I was supposed to be working at Texas Instruments for half the day, but the guy I was going to work with finished everything the night before. So I decided to cruise down to downtown Dallas, I took some pictures and just wandered around randomly. I started heading to the airport when I got a page from my boss asking me to come into work once I was back in Phoenix.

I got back to Phoenix and went into the office where I was taken into a room with my boss and an HR guy. They told me that they've had to come to a hard decision. They've watched me work and they've talked to my coworkers and they decided that my working habits were not satisfactory. I can understand this, I guess. I'm not the most mechanically inclined person, and that's most of what the job is. I've been doing it for three months, and they just didn't like the progress I was making. Most of the other guys I work with are 'car guys.' They work on their cars, build their own, etc. They have mechanical training, and so a job like this comes easy to them. I just wasn't good enough.

I don't know what I want to do now. I need a new job, but I'm not sure if I want to stay in the semiconductor field or move onto something completely different.

I am going to take some time off though. From work, from the Internet, from most everything. My dad was the first one I called, and he suggested that I take some time off and go back to Hoquiam, spend some time with family and relax, so I'm going to take him up on it. He's flying in tomorrow morning, we're gonna do some sight seeing, finish up some things in town and then we're probably going to drive back to Washington, which is something we originally planned to do last Christmas but got interrupted for health reasons.

I really feel like I need time away to figure out what I want to do with my life, before today, I was content with what I was doing. I may have been slow and struggling, but I thought I'd get it eventually. I was really enjoying the traveling and liked the people I work with. It was a pretty hard hit, I feel like a failure, but I know that I can rebound, I just have to figure out what I want to rebound to.

Comments

Hang in there sweetie

[natatattat.livejournal.com]

Oh dear, what a terrible thing to have happen to you. *big hugs* Take that much needed time off. You deserve it.

When you're ready and if you're willing to get some help/advice/counseling on a possible career change, Maricopa Workforce Connections offers tons of free services including career assessment workshops. I have a boat load of information from them and am sure to get more as I try and figure out where I'm going from here. If you'd like, I can give you their contact info.

~Natalie

Re: Hang in there sweetie

[yaksha42.livejournal.com]

That would be nice :-)

*hugs*

Re: Hang in there sweetie

[natatattat.livejournal.com]

One Stop Locations:

Maricopa Workforce Connections -
Peoria
9770 W. Peoria Ave
623.934.3231

Gilbert
735 N. Gilbert Rd, Ste 134
480.497.0350

Phoenix Workforce Connections -
North
9801 N. 7th St.
Phoenix
602.861.0208

West
3406 N. 51st. Ave
Phoenix
623.247.3304

South
4732 S. Central Ave
Phoenix
602.534.4732


There are other offices that don't offer full service but I don't know the addresses to those at the moment. I visited the Gilbert office last Tuesday and was quite impressed by the caliber of people they have working there and of the level of services offered. I have an appointment with a career counselor on Monday so I'll let you know how it goes. *more hugs*

[luthiea.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry Yakky :( What a hard blow, but don't be too hard on yourself. Have a rest, have a think, decide where you want to be. Something new will come along soon I'm sure :)

*hugstightly*

[loralienasa.livejournal.com]

That really sucks, dude. You have my sympathies. And I know you'll pull through all right. Who knows: maybe this time off will turn out to be a good thing.

[bubbles.livejournal.com]

Oh my poor baby boy. I am so sorry. What a horrible experience. Call me if you need to talk.

[wackyfeline.livejournal.com]

You were never a failure to me Yakky. Even though it was a short stint, you learned a whole load of stuff at your job.

Take your time man, you sound like you need a break. Good luck in whatever you do next. :)

[anarie111.livejournal.com]

[nilo.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. I'd have to say that your job change didn't seem to work with your strengths. And you do have lots of them, you know. Don't go too far. I'd be sad if you fell off the earth.

[estherthegb]

They didn't even give a warning, that's seriously messed up. :hugs:

[mi-wounded-soul.livejournal.com]

ahh man, i sorry dude =\

i know it sucks here but i bet they would rehire you if you wanted.. i hope you get something that you are more interested in, i know on monster.com there is a company called VOLT and they could help you get a tech support job for liek 12 an hour, nothing compared to what you were getting but alls they want is good comp and people skills, you could easily do that job. and its in tempe so probably not to far from yer apt.

enjoy the break with your family and tell em i said hi.

[aina42.livejournal.com]

Oh, yak...:(

don't let these things get to you, please. you'll find something else. /:) for noe, just relax and take a break. fuck life.

[starlyn-monster.livejournal.com]

When I was laid off, I felt like a gilted lover for a long time. I think that the time driving up the coast and with your family will help you figure some stuff out. Maybe you can figure out where that lake is.

Sorry if I scared you earlier when I was walking around with my enema bag. Eek. That was embaraassing!!!

[gglass.livejournal.com]

Aw, I'm so sorry. It doesn't in any way indicate that you're a failure, or anything like that...just, sometimes, great people get laid off.

Good luck, relax, and enjoy your breathing time. *hugs tight*

[lotjeisgraaf.livejournal.com]

Damn Yukky, that really sucks! I'm so sorry.
You're not a failure, and you know you're not. Lots of people would LOVE to hire you.
Enjoy your family time.

*hugs*

[heri.livejournal.com]

Shit! I hope this still catches you before you leave with your Dad.

As everyone has said, you're everything but a failure. Anyone who knows you knows this, and we're all sure you'll rebound into something great, with no effort at all - your talents are many, and your knowledge is wide. :D

This is seriously their loss!

In the meantime, enjoy this time with your family to the most. Make the best of it... and bring back loads of pics when you come back! :D

And we'll be rigging the votes for you. ;o)

Great big hugs! {{{Yakky}}}

(If you manage to go online, give a holler in YM. *Hugs* )

[nilmandra.livejournal.com]

That wasn't well done of them, with no warning whatsoever... It is natural to feel down and upset, but don't let it overwhelm you. You have your strengths and weaknesses, just like everyone else. You just need time to figure out how to capitalise on them and in what capacities. Taking time off sounds very sensible. I am sure something even better will turn up. In the meantime, relax and enjoy being with the family. Hope to hear from you again soon *hugs*

vacation

[nubleu2.livejournal.com]

Well, it sucks feeling like a failure. Everytime i get fired, i feel like that...and i've gotten fired quite a few times, however, it ALWAYS works out. Usually I just retreat, try to figure out what I want to do, fall back on my family and my closest friends (to remind me what a unique and wonderful life I'm living...and if I weren't me--with all both my plusses and minuses--my life just wouldn't be the same), and then rebound to find an even more perfect job around the corner....

Enjoy your time off...the time spent with your family and with yourself just relaxing is *far* more valuable than any job will ever be.